Life takes its own shape and it has its own ways of teaching. I moved and so it has moved as well. Some where there was storm and I was sitting in my home feeling safe and protected. I never realised that the place where there were thunders and lightening was my mind and the most affected was me. The storm passed by and ruined was I. left with me were the remains of my relations and my emotions.

Things I prized so much have lost their charm. Realised have I that all that I had was the sand in my hand and slipped it has with the time. I feel betrayed, but who was responsible for it certainly not someone, it was myself. Let the flags be down and march go along there would be a day when march will I and the flags I carry will be the only one.

For I have known you for years
And haven’t I seen you once
Never did I question your existence as well
Never have I let my faith betray me

Now the things are changing
Tired am I keeping the count
Of how many times
Lost have I the battles I fought

Do not expect I
You fight for me
But the be there as my support arm
And let the righteous win

Longings have reached the toll
Want I that you should hold
Hold me tight
And take away all my fright

Fears of loosing you has become strong
But then I have no song
Which could lure you?
And pave the path to those lovely morns.

Morns of my dreams
Where there was happiness and fragrance
Alas! Lost is the dream
Lost is your fragrant presence

Still kept have I
A lightened the candles of hope
For faith have I in those unknowns
You will return to bless and make my dreams true

परेशान है जिन्दगी,
परेशान है हम...

Life the most beautiful thing shows its facets that is difficult to decipher. I am going through something similar. Difficult it is becoming for me to tie the ends of the threads which holds my life. Might be it is illusion that the threads I am holding are the ones which holds my life but then who knows .... atleast not I.

Years have gone past and never ever did I gave thought to it so seriously but then why today is a question which comes to my mind. Have I changed from what I was or what I wanted to be. Lost long lost are the dreams which I wove and for which I was living. This again is my supposition.

Ha!!!

Suppostions!! illusions!!

Wondering am I have I ever lived a real life..... for that matter anybody has ever lived ?

Let me ponder and find the answers ..... someday I will..... someone would be there to show me my way, reach will I to destiny I have been destined to

Walking was I alone
Drenched were the roads
Washed were the trees
Fresh was the air

Endless seemed the road
The turns blind
And the humps many
Stopped I many a times
To find am I right
There I see
Many a roads
Alas! cross road
No not again
Solved isn’t as yet
One mystery and other has begun
How will I cope
was my thought
but then when
was I supposed to resolve
realised I
I am in a web
And there is no way out
Happy am I
With all those
Crossroads
Which has become the kith and kin
a inseparable one

I had this picture
in my thoughts
unclear, incomplete

blur was the image
and dull were the colors
wanted I to find
the unkown face
of my thoughts

Slept I nights many
thinking
today will be the day
clear would be the fog
and
I would be able to see

Alas sleepless
went those nights
mystery prevailed
lived I with the question
and die will I
the way !!!

Standing am I alone,
the rising and the falling of tides
pulls the sand underneath
trying am I
to prevent my fall.

the tight reminds me
of the days past by
without me realizing
when n where they slipped

The sky dark,
surroundings dark
make me loose
my hopes
terrifies me within

see I those stars
the only hope
and felt I strong
realizing
survived have they
all the odds
Somewhere I feel
if they have
so will I!!!

Witness will
the sea-shores, the tides
my success
and embrace me these darkness
with the comfort within

Autumn has given its call
trees has shed the leaves
and standing are they tall

Wondered I
how will they protect
themselves
from the cruel cold
Still, survived they
against all the odds
the heat of summer
and the snow of winter
And stood erect and tall.

Learnt I
to stand in all odds
to make the things happen
the way I want
the way I want !!!!